26.03.2010

Today no public transport again. Uncle on leave.On leave den we all no bus to go back :( so sad...So i ask daddy to fetch me up from work. Like my age,back from work usually is drive they own,bf fetch or husband. But i have to wait for PARENT. -_-

The lift is open,gosh...7th floor got one madam is inside the lift and got one more aunty.CLK that madam.Say today i wear like christmas tree blinking blinking. I look up,down,left and right.My shirt n legging not blinking at all. Don't know wat happen with her eyes. Den dad come n fetch me after five to ten minutes. Dad start chit chat with me. Tell me that today my ah kong condition turn bad :( and few days oledi din talk,and din eat...10days already he din eat anything. If continue like tt,he don't have any energy already.My heart start feel sour again. I hate myself. Why little bit of thg den i will feel so "sakit". First i still got reply to dad. TILL he mention bout part of his property. Well,property is belonging to him. I have no comment he want to give it to him as long as he happy. Good ppl will get good blessed BUT good people always will kena bully. So i still prefer to protect ourself first than be a good person. HaHahA.... Say is easy but DO is very hard.

sad,disappointed,down

Today i got this kind of feeling. this feeling is back again. i owes wan to hide my feeling behind n when i wake up all gone. End up i stil cant make it. Need to speak n talk out OR type here. Last few mth my fnd told me tt he got a new gf. On tat time i don have any feeling at all. Just thk well,sure one day he will find new gf too n i will find new gf too. But im confuse now. When one of my fnd told me tt he saw him wif one gal n wan me to make sure tt i reli forget bout him. I thanks a lot to my fnd cos they honest n direct to me. BUT im not honest n direct to myself. This is a big problem. I keep thking why my relationship owes end like tt? Wat d i do wrong till i get this kind of reply? Anyone can answer me,d i do somethg wrong?