Second time and Second time

So long so lnong didnt post anythg here. Should be life is good n smooth. But this month so many thg is happen for the second time. Such as work and also love. Been resign for two time and been broken feeling toward same guy for two time. wat happen with me? Don't like my job i can resign...But how bout relationship? Sometime reli don't like my heart.once step into it and its so hard to get out... This month rel is a BAD month for me.Make i feel v v tired with my life.

26.03.2010

Today no public transport again. Uncle on leave.On leave den we all no bus to go back :( so sad...So i ask daddy to fetch me up from work. Like my age,back from work usually is drive they own,bf fetch or husband. But i have to wait for PARENT. -_-

The lift is open,gosh...7th floor got one madam is inside the lift and got one more aunty.CLK that madam.Say today i wear like christmas tree blinking blinking. I look up,down,left and right.My shirt n legging not blinking at all. Don't know wat happen with her eyes. Den dad come n fetch me after five to ten minutes. Dad start chit chat with me. Tell me that today my ah kong condition turn bad :( and few days oledi din talk,and din eat...10days already he din eat anything. If continue like tt,he don't have any energy already.My heart start feel sour again. I hate myself. Why little bit of thg den i will feel so "sakit". First i still got reply to dad. TILL he mention bout part of his property. Well,property is belonging to him. I have no comment he want to give it to him as long as he happy. Good ppl will get good blessed BUT good people always will kena bully. So i still prefer to protect ourself first than be a good person. HaHahA.... Say is easy but DO is very hard.

sad,disappointed,down

Today i got this kind of feeling. this feeling is back again. i owes wan to hide my feeling behind n when i wake up all gone. End up i stil cant make it. Need to speak n talk out OR type here. Last few mth my fnd told me tt he got a new gf. On tat time i don have any feeling at all. Just thk well,sure one day he will find new gf too n i will find new gf too. But im confuse now. When one of my fnd told me tt he saw him wif one gal n wan me to make sure tt i reli forget bout him. I thanks a lot to my fnd cos they honest n direct to me. BUT im not honest n direct to myself. This is a big problem. I keep thking why my relationship owes end like tt? Wat d i do wrong till i get this kind of reply? Anyone can answer me,d i do somethg wrong?

lalala.....

so long din post anythg at here oledi. almost forgot bout tat too :) time goes v fast. and age also increase v fast.Feel like my life is stil maintain de same like past few yrs ago...no changing at all. Should feel happy or NOT? some ppl like my age,all oledi marriage and got few (monkey) to busy everyday...but my life jus like more to enjoy n relax.no pressure....thk of when we young hav pressure or when we old got pressure which one is good?